Not having enough energy + drugs = too much thinking time
My energy level is starting to increase (as evidenced by a 3-day stretch where I had 2 days of "Nephew Time" and 1 day "out" at my Aunt/Uncle's house for the midday hours), so I can HOPEFULLY get a few things done soon, before I go to work in about a month. Which also means ... less "online" time.
It's not good to wonder "what if" OR torture oneself with "if I only knew then what I know now" OR consider what you might do given a "do over" chance. Yet, sometimes the mind just wanders to those ... and it's hard to stop it, particularly when the drugs are doing most of the talking. I don't have any regrets, per se, though I could name things I'd do differently or just DO, for that matter, if given the opportunity. AND, it's NO secret that I'm unhappy with the financial strain my health issues have me in, perhaps for my entire life, but I do the best I can....
One of the more frustrating questions an interviewer asks is, "Where do you see yourself in 5 years?" I've no idea. I'm not even where I'd thought I'd be when I envisioned my life 10 years down the road, back when I was in college, some 15 years ago now. Irony rocks!
Even though my life isn't like I thought it'd be by this age, perhaps I'm where I'm supposed to be. But, that isn't much comfort when I look at the lives of my peers and see how much "farther" along they are, than I am. But, maybe we are all just as far along as each other ... just taking different paths. That sounds better, at least.
I know (and have been "preaching") that LIFE IS TOO SHORT, but even I lose sight of that sometimes. I have so much on my list of WANT TO DOs, but not enough time OR energy OR money to actually DO all, let alone some, of that list ... a very frustrating situation. And, that doesn't include hopes and dreams....
Also ... now that my "big heart" is gone ... I'm not taking crap from companies OR people, especially companies.
Flame wars? Life is too short, or is that not through your THICK SKULLS yet?
Untruthful slogans? We have laws against false advertising, so why aren't slogans included?
IGNORED technicalities and facts are NOT acceptable, either. And, yes, we DID start the fire....
Who knows what life will cook up next. I'll just keep moving along as best as possible, hopefully traveling the road less taken while laughing and having "too much fun" along the way. How about you?
FEW MORE QUOTES:
"You roll with the bad, you savor the good. It is the waiting that is the hardest part."
"With so much stress and hurry in the world, smiles and kindnesses go a long way."
"Happiness looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is."
"We must slow down to a human tempo, and we’ll begin to have time to listen."
"You begin to move mountains when you start carrying away small stones."
"The best/most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or touched; they must be felt within the heart."
"Don't spend so much time trying to choose the perfect opportunity, that you miss the right opportunity."
"You will never get ahead if you spend all your time trying to get even."
"Pressing harder on the remote when you know the battery is dead will not bring the battery back to life."
"Cherished happy moments make a fine cushion for old age."
"Everybody is nobody to somebody."
"I'm not sure if I have a clear conscience or a bad memory, or maybe the drugs are talking...."
"When something doesn't work out the way you thought/hoped, see it as something that went unexpectedly well, but for reasons that are not yet apparent."
"Winning does not always mean coming in first; real victory is arriving at the finish line with no regrets because you know you’ve gone all out."
"I'd bet, on any given Friday or Saturday night, more kisses begin with alcohol instead of Kay."
* 1 MORE QUOTE: "Try to look at the optimistic side of life, but be realistic enough to know that life is a complex matter."
Those of us with chronic health issues and/or who've endured some type of surgery (open heart surgery, knee surgery, back surgery, etc.) know very well the difference a POSITIVE attitude can have for recovery/survival. Yet, we can lose sight of that at times, particularly when we're not feeling well or are frustrated with different aspect(s) of recovery or the financial strain or just feeling all alone. It's not always easy, and sometimes what others perceive as a "positive" attitude ... doesn't feel that way to us....
Some of what helps me keep things in perspective (including the SONG QUOTE in my sig below)...
